Apparently the Devil wears Ferragamo too!

I am so freaking livid right now!!!!...as in i am seeing RED, YELLOW, and even BLUE SEF!!!!. At this point i am so irritated that i can't even think straight.

So there is this guy i have been talking to for a while right...like for over a year now. Its one of those relationships where we just "kick it", no commitment whatsoever. I agreed to this BS because when i met him i wasn't looking for anything really serious either (haven just gotten rid of my freeloader long distance boyfriend). He was incredibly good looking with a laugh i just adored to bits, i guess this is the point i should point out he was a charmer too and i fell hook, line and sinker for all his lines. So for months we would just meet up and hang out on a "we are getting to know each other" type level (BIG MISTAKE!). It was then i found out he had more baggage than a full BA flight to Naija, i tried to deal with all the little shockers as they came, even though they bothered me. At some point i wanted more from our relationship but he still had his drama to take care off...so i didn't push.

Everything was fine ..until about four months into knowing him, i had gotten a random call from my "Best Friend" saying that she had something to tell me and she didn't want me to over-react. OK..so what is it abi?....she tells me that my "Man friend" who i thought was trying to get to know me, had been making passes at her. My initial reaction was to grab both their heads and shove them down my toilet ..but i recovered quickly. I let my friend off the hook (even though i had a feeling she wasn't telling me the whole story) and i turned my beef to him, which of cos the bobo played the whole situation down like i was being a major drama queen.In the name of "I still like him", i forgave him and we kept our friendship .....but i never did forget what he did and i knew at the back of my mind that i would never want to date a man i couldn't even trust with my best friend. He moved out of the country and i figured that i might be able to get over him now, i tried to ignore the fact that he never called me once since he left..... i almost succeeded. And then I get an IM from him about a month ago saying that he was coming back to the states for a couple of weeks, i was like cool...CALL ME when you get into town. Being the inconsiderate jerk that he is...i never did get any call from him , only those stupid IMs he has grown accustomed to sending in the last couple of months. So i get another IM from him again about a week ago and this time he was coming down to MD. He wanted to see me, but i wasn't so sure if i wanted to give in that easily to seeing him too ...i was a bit hesitant but i did miss him, so i figured it wouldn't hurt to hang out with him. Saturday came and went...NO CALL ....Sunday came and went...STILL NO CALL. At this point i had concluded that he didn't come into town after all.Only for me to get another freaking IM from this Bobo telling me that he did come into town this weekend and that he was planning to leave back to NY pretty soon...but he wanted to see me before he leaves. HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!.....I HAVE SUFFERED IN MY LIFE OHHHH, the guy must have thought he was dealing with the "world's biggest dummy", "ode in training" ....shey the lizard does not know that "normal" Americans keep 9-5 jobs?...... abi was his brain that porous as not to remember that for as long as he has known me..... I AM ALWAYS WORKING?. So basically i listened to him ramble on about how he couldn't help the situation that happened this weekend and how he was sorry. Like i haven't heard all that crap before.
Right now...for this moment.....i am boiling over with anger. I am angry at him for being born an asshole ..but more so i am angry at myself. I am angry that i let him get to me, i am angry i still like him even after everything he has put me thru, i am angry i waited for him to call this weekend,..but most of all i am angry that i could forgive him after attempting to sleep with my best friend..but yet i can't forgive him for not calling me. No matter how much my friends tell me not to give it a second thought..... i can't help it. No matter how much they tell me i always knew he was an ass anyway...it still doesn't make me feel better. I laid it on him thick..even though as dumb as he is, i am sure it was all like being in Algebra class for him...HE PROBABLY CAN'T REMEMBER A THING I SAID!!!. But at least i am happy i told him how i felt about his toying with people's emotions. I can't believe men and their thinking they can get away with so much crap!!!.

On a brighter note, i had fun this weekend!!!. My friend turned the big 25..... so i decided to take her out to dinner. It ended up being about 5 girls and we had so much fun. We ate some good food, had some great cake and flirted with our extremely cute waiter (i hope he enjoyed his 20% tip!), anyway Happy Birthday Ju-Ju!!!. I think i am done ranting for now...i will be back with stories of what I have been up to (believe me ..... THE DRAMA NEVER ENDS!)

P.S: Happy Mothers Day to my FAB Mum!!!...and to every woman who embodies the true definition of love.